A few days ago, I read this article on babble.com that got me thinking. It was called, Do You Tell Your Real Age? It got me thinking and my "hamster wheel" in my head going as well. This woman had 2 young children, 4 and 1, a business and a husband. She was also 23. She didn't like to tell her real age because people would assume things, based off that number. Her business was thriving and her beautiful home was too but still that was her one insecurity....her "young" age.
Got me thinking that like her, I am insecure about my age as well. I am 27. Got married at 21. Had my first child at 23, second by 25. By numbers standards, I am young, however, I do not feel my age. I have lived in 2 different countries, 2 (almost 3) different states and traveled a lot. Finished college and have a wonderful home, in which I take care of. Still, for whatever reason, my biggest thing that I am insecure about is my age. <There I said it...>
I often think about how people portray me when I am out with my children. (I will make a side note that I usually do not care about what people think of me, but like I said, this is my "thing") When they're having a break down or misbehaving, I feel like people see my age, as weird as that sounds. Oh that poor young girl, doesn't have the skills because she is so young. I know this is all in my head, but I cannot help it. I have also gotten the, ooh "you're so young to be a mom" thing too and that drives me bonkers. As if, because I am young, I am incapable of making the right decisions based upon my own intelligence. People often like to put their two sense in and I often cannot find the polite words to say, thanks but not thanks.
I am not sure why that's my insecurity. Something that I struggle with personally and hopefully one day will overcome. I'm usually a pretty confident person, so this strikes myself, even as odd. With that being said, I also needed to announce this because I thought maybe others are like myself out there who struggle with this. We chose to be young parents. We wanted to be young with our kids and enjoy ourselves afterwards. There is nothing wrong with that, but sometimes its a struggle that I find hard to overcome. I am getting more comfortable with it as I get older, but like all things, time will help overcome this.
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